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Mar 31, 2021

These Former Cult Members Now Help Others Escape

Cult mediators tell us about their most dangerous cases—from finding their house covered in blankets to helping recruits break free from groups where babies were breastfed by mothers high on acid.

Shamani Joshi
MUMBAI, IN
Vice 
March 30, 2021



Cults can get super weird. They can be abusive, destructive and even life-threatening. They can also be endlessly fascinating. 

A social group characterised by their extreme belief or reverence towards a particular leading figure or object, cults aren’t by definition dangerous. But, history has taught us time and again that people who believe violence is an act of love, or that they’re the chosen one to lead the otherwise doomed humanity, or that their leader is actually an alien, probably have issues that need resolving. 

In a world full of distress and disease, getting sucked into a cult that offers peace and the promised land is surprisingly easier than it seems. What is not easy, though, is getting out and helping others get out too. We spoke with some cult interventionists and deprogrammers on how they help people break away after having broken away themselves—and the repercussions the work has on their lives.  

Joe Kelly 

I was involved with two groups in the 70s. One was a group called Transcendental Meditation or TM, that was run by a Hindu guru, Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, who became famous for being the Beatles guru. Here, we went from a simple 20-minute meditation technique to being convinced we could levitate for world peace.

Simultaneously, I was studying comparative religions, and was especially fascinated by Hinduism. I met a man—who I thought was my true guru—named Swami Prakashanand Saraswati, who had a group called the International Society of Divine Love. In the 1980s, he took a group of us from TM and established an ashram in Philadelphia, which was more structured and rigid. Some of its members even sued Maharishi for millions of dollars for being a fraud. Swami Prakashanand then used the money to set up a temple outside of Austin, Texas, called Barsana Dham. But the Swami was eventually convicted of abusing his follower’s children, though he ran back to India where he was protected. 

After that, the group’s attorneys suggested we attend this conference where ex members of cults talk about their experiences, so we could understand how to evaluate whether someone is a spiritual guru or a conman. That’s when I first understood the psychology and sociology behind these groups, and decided I’d use my experiences to take apart the structures of belief for other people who had gravitated towards cults. 

People join cults if they are dissatisfied with their family, or want to find their own individuality, and such groups make them believe they will help you realise your true potential. One of the most challenging cases I’ve worked on was with a group that encouraged channeling, which is the concept that there is a world of dispossessed spirits that can educate the people of this world, and give you knowledge to live a better life. 

But what they taught was that the use of drugs like ecstasy and LSD could help you gain this knowledge. Their approach was to gain more monetary benefit from the world, and they believed that through positive thinking and believing in prosperity, you can change your alignment with the universe, and it would bestow wealth upon you. It was led by a woman named Katherine Holt, who said she was channeling a spirit from the 17th century of a man named Father Andre, who was theoretically a mystic. She had about 30 followers, and would cause people to couple or decouple. She would ask them to do ecstasy, or have sex with people other than their spouses. I began working with a man named Mark, who had married a woman in the group. While in session, his wife was told to have sex with another man upstairs, while Mark could hear them. The leader told Mark that despite what he was hearing and feeling, he had to separate from that emotion. That he would only be free if he let go of the ego and ownership he felt for his wife, and refused to live by the norms of the society. He was tripping on drugs, but was told not to feel the emotions he was feeling. 

At that point Mark realised there was something very wrong there. He went to his parents, who contacted me through the Cult Awareness Network. His dilemma was that his wife and child were in the group, and that child was being breastfed by a mom using LSD and ecstasy. We developed a strategy to reach out to the wife. Her family had a wedding in New England, so we went there. The cult told her to stay away from her husband, who was “evil” because he’d left the group. I was supposed to make him feel calm and try to help his wife see how wrong the group was. But, unbeknownst to me, my mentor had organised for Mark to take his child and move to a safe house in Colorado. It culminated in a long legal battle for custody, but eventually the group’s leader was arrested and the wife left. 

Some of the most difficult cases for me are the ones that involve a family. Once there’s a romantic influence or friendship with other members of the cult, it becomes more difficult to break them out of it. 

Patrick Ryan

I saw Maharishi Mahesh Yogi on a TV show, and got involved with him when I was 17. I spent five years at his university, where we were told things like we could walk through walls to save the world. Since his followers were Nobel Prize winners in physics and governors, we believed these claims. We did 22-hour-long meditations [Inaccurate - I didn't say this.]  which pushed people to extreme points, ... [some] ...  of them even jumping out of windows. Maharishi would also send people into war zones in Iran and Mozambique, often putting them in danger. Over time, I realised that despite everything, I couldn’t in fact levitate or walk through walls. So, I sued him for fraud and negligence. 

After doing cult mediations for 38 years, I can tell you that while models are important tools to assess the approach of cult interventions, there is no one method to help someone. One of my most important learning experiences was in the early 2000s. I was in Australia to help a member of the Church of Scientology. The Church has a policy that they have to be against someone trying to “expose” them or telling their members to leave. So they had two private detectives follow me from my house in Philadelphia to Australia. 

On my last night in Australia, I was served a lawsuit which said I had verbally molested a 17-year-old woman, and that she had demanded a restraining order. I had never met the woman in my life, but what they wanted to achieve through this is to frame a media narrative to affect my credibility. Also, according to Australian law, if I was at a restaurant and this woman walked in, I could get arrested. I had to fight a long legal battle, and ultimately, the judge ruled that I wasn’t guilty. But the church did everything to stop me. 

Once, I was flying to Australia to attend my hearing and decided to carry a box of pancake mix when I was stopped at the airport. Turns out, the church had tipped them off saying I was a drug courier. When the authorities opened my bag, they saw white powder all over my stuff because the pancake mix had popped open. But after I told my story to the interrogating agent, he gave me a ten year visa to work in Australia, so even that backfired for the church. When dealing with the church, I’d have armed [I didn't say this] members parked in front of my house in Philadelphia, blankets covering  all my windows from the outside and even people pressing their hands on my door’s keyhole so I was cut off from the outside world. 


That’s also when I realised that instead of criticising a cult to its members, I needed to find a way to make them feel heard, especially by their family. If you can appreciate what I like, then you have a right to criticise it. So what I try to do is teach families why people find something beautiful in the cults they join. 

In some cases, the family themselves would push people to join cults. I was doing an intervention with a young woman who was part of a martial arts cult, where the leader was sexually abusive. But in the middle of the session with her mother and me, she screamed, “Oh you think he’s bad? Well, dad fucked me.” We had to stop the session right there, and that’s also where I learnt that I had to interview multiple family members before approaching the person who got influenced into a cult. 

Joseph Szimhart

I participated in a series of cult-like organisations based on theosophy, the main one being the Church Universal and Triumphant (which was later exposed as a doomsday cult), in the 70s. My first wife divorced me in 1979, since most of my mental time was going towards the cult. As a result, I grew disillusioned with the group. After I quit, my former group members would ask me why. When I told them, they quit based on my information, though they had been in it for longer. That’s when I realised how I could use my experience to help other cult members. 

I’ve been in the field for over decades, and worked with people across the world, from the Rajneesh Osho group in Oregon to the Brahmakumaris in Kerala. I have participated in cases where a cult member was kidnapped by their family and kept against their will for many years to make sure they break free of the cultic influence. Those cases are always a challenge because you could end up in jail.I stood trial for a case like this in 1993, but was acquitted of all charges. 

The people are also usually very angry and don’t want to talk, so I have to get them to trust me to talk. I had a few cases with a martial arts organisation called Chung Moo Quan, and got several of their instructors to leave. The leader, Master John C. Kim, came to the U.S. claiming he was an Asian martial arts champion and had a title that never existed. He was a middle-aged man with some skills in martial arts, so he set up professional looking schools. He’d recruit members from these schools to enrol in instructor courses, which were sometimes upto $100,000. He had a way of convincing these young people that he had special powers that could harm people without touching them, and he would have these secret meetings with the members, making them feel very special. He formed a cult of these instructors loyal to him in Boston, Houston and Chicago. These people would cut off communication from their families, would go to classes constantly, get just three or four hours of sleep, and put on a lot of weight because of a diet meant to make them “look strong”. They even got beards to look threatening. 

The cult leader had an initiation process to prove his followers’ loyalty by putting them in a chokehold and asking them if they’d die for their group. If people passed out in the chokehold, he’d accept them. The members thought he had magical powers so they wouldn’t threaten him. But when the group found out about me, they put out posters vilifying me. After I helped expose them on a television show, they were raided by the government. The group sued me and threatened me verbally several times. An IRS agent even told me they had a hit out on me. I don’t have bodyguards, a gun or even insurance, because most companies see you as a liability. 

I have also done interventions with leaders. One was a guy who called himself Paa, which was short for Padmasaaha. He thought he was the reincarnation of Satya Sai Baba, who was a big religious leader in India. But Paa was just a fake magician who claimed he was doing “miracles''. I did an intervention when he had only one member. I acted like I was interested in his religion and interviewed him on camera. But not all interventions help, and he ended up controlling about 30 people. 

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Dec 16, 2020

Moving Beyond the Guru, with Joe Kelly




Jon Atack, Family & Friends
December 15, 2020

"Joe Kelly spent nine years in Transcendental Meditation and then five more with a rival swami, who convinced his former TM followers to sue for refunds from that group. This led to Joe meeting Margaret Singer, who helped to begin to rethink his involvement. For many years, Joe has worked helping members of authoritarian groups to rethink their involvement."


May 5, 2020

ICSA History Collection Interview of Clark, Kelly, Ryan

International Cultic Studies Association (ICSA)
May 5, 2020


Robert E. Schecter, PhD, interviewed three exit counselors on October 27, 2018 as part of a series of interviews designed to illuminate ICSA’s history. David Clark, Joseph Kelly, and Patrick Ryan discuss their personal cultic experiences, how they became involved in the field, the nature of their work, and their views on ICSA and its future.



Aug 28, 2017

Swami Prakashanand Saraswati

Swami Prakashanand Saraswati
Swami Prakashanand Saraswati
Swami Prakashanand Saraswati or Swamiji (Hindi: स्वामी प्रकाशानंद सरस्वती) (born 1929) is a convicted felon and child molester, spiritual leader, social reformer and award-winning author from Ayodhya, India who founded Radha Madhav Dham in the United States.

He is a Rasik Saint in the tradition of Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. In 2011, a jury found Swami Prakashanand Saraswati guilty on 20 counts of indecency with a child. He is still a fugitive and appeared on the Fox TV show America's Most Wanted.

Swami Prakashanand Saraswati was born in a respectable brahmin family in 1929 in Ayodhya, India. His early life was fraught with intense religious feelings, and as a youth he became a reclusive mystic so that he might find God.[10] He completed his studies and at age of 21, renounced the world and took the order of sanyas. In 1952, he was offered to become the Jagadguru Shankaracharya of Jyotirmath but he declined, because, according to Swami Prakshanand Saraswati, he "was drawn towards the love of Radha Krishna".

He spent the next 20 years as a wandering ascetic in the Himalayas and in the forests of central India, ending in Braj. Following the strict discipline of sannyas, he first lived in the Himalayas (Joshimath, Badrinath, Rishikesh, Haridwar, etc.), forests of Amarkantak, near the Narbada River, Allahabad and Kashi for about four years. Later, he went to Vrindaban and then to Barsana where he spent over 18 years in the deep woodlands of Braj. In 1975, he emerged from his solitary life he began his mission of teaching the path of raganuga bhakti. He founded the International Society of Divine Love in India in 1975. The society was established in New Zealand in 1978. Later on he travelled to America and founded an ashram for his devotees and disciples. By 1981 Swami Prakashanand Saraswati, who had begun to be thought of as a distinguished sage and a saint, conceived of creating a global mission, establishing religious centres in India, England, Ireland, Singapore, New Zealand, and Australia.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prakashanand_Saraswati

Jul 23, 2016

How a Self-Taught Hacker Escaped a Cult


jULY 22, 2016

GLAMOUR

BY ERIKA HAYASAKI

 

The computer Shyama Rose got for her 14th birthday was a boxy Macintosh Quadra 650. The year was 1994. People didn't email; there was no Facebook; the founders of Google hadn't even met. And news of the emerging World Wide Web hadn't yet made its way inside the gates of Barsana Dham, the religious compound in Austin, Texas, where she lived.

The compound sat on a spectacular stretch of lush property and featured a castle-like temple adorned with gold-leaf-covered pillars, marble floors, sheepskin rugs, thrones, and shrines—all encircled by fences. Devotees there rejected mainstream society; they'd renounced their worldly possessions to come worship a spiritual leader named Swami Prakashanand Saraswati, who wore bright yellow and orange robes and garlands of flowers around his neck. Followers sat watching in silence as he ate his meals. They bowed at his feet and drank from his spit. Years later, Rose would come across a "cult checklist" and answer questions like: "Does the group display excessively zealous and unquestioning commitment to its leader?" Yes. "Are questioning, doubt, and dissent discouraged or even punished?" Yes. But when Rose first moved into the compound at age 11 with her mother and brother, life there seemed magical.

One night not long after getting her computer, Rose was in the bungalow she shared with seven adult women. Before the evening services she sat alone in her bedroom, tinkering with the machine. There was a cord that looked like a phone jack, so she dragged the Macintosh into her mom's room and plugged it in. A strange dial-up sound hummed and beeped. A window popped open on the screen. "This is cool," she thought.

Rose had just stumbled upon the Internet. And it would be her escape from Barsana Dham.

"The Brainwashing Started When I Was a Few Months Old"
By the time Shyama Rose was born in Rotorua, New Zealand, her mother, Tui Rose, had already started following the guru and his organization, the International Society of Divine Love. He was the one who suggested the name Shyama, after a Hindu goddess.

According to Rose, while she was a toddler her mother took off to travel with Saraswati. (Tui says she went for medical reasons, not to be with the guru.) Her father, an insurance salesman, was left to take care of her and her brother, who was four years older. "Suddenly he's like, 'I'm a single dad whose wife has bounced out of the picture,'  " says Rose. "When I was three and a half, he committed suicide while my brother and I were in the house." She doesn't remember much, except standing under a tree and hearing sirens; she's been told that at the funeral she tried to climb into the casket to hug her father's body.

"My mom came home and had to pack up our lives," says Rose. For a few years they lived in California, where Tui had made friends with other followers, but struggled to get by. When they moved to Barsana Dham, life was better. "We had 15 'brothers and sisters' and 200 acres to run around in," says Rose. "We had a creek that went through the property; we'd go swim and jump off cliffs all day." She didn't leave except to attend the local public school, though in her long skirts and long braids, she'd sometimes get called "devil worshipper" by the other kids. "I didn't care. I just thought, Screw you; you're stupid," she says. "It had been drilled into my head that I was this special snowflake and I'd been put on this earth to find God—the brainwashing started when I was a few months old."

Things changed dramatically when Rose was 12. One day in Saraswati's kitchen, he began adjusting her sari and suddenly his hand was all over her breasts. He was a half century older than she. He was considered a divinity. "And I was 100 percent devoted," she says. "I knew it wasn't right. But I felt like if I said something, I would go to hell."

Still, she did tell her mother about the incident. "She said it was grace; it was coming from God," recalls Rose. (Tui remembers the conversation this way: "I asked [Shyama] was she sure he didn't accidentally bump her while working the sari and gracing her by his attention? She didn't respond but was not visibly upset at all. I wish with all my being…a red flag would have gone off.")

Soon the abuse was a regular, at least weekly, event: "There was lots of fondling, lots of touching," Rose says. After she was assigned to be his personal servant, "I would be sent into his room, and he would do sexual stuff," she says. "Sometimes he would show up at my bed at three in the morning. It was terrifying."

When Rose was 13, Kate Tonnessen, a 14-year-old at the ashram, confided that she was also being molested by the swami. "I was sleeping over with Shyama, and going, 'Say you were abused,' " recalls Tonnessen. "I needed her to back me up." Rose couldn't. "I still believed in him," she says. "I didn't know anything else."

"I Had No Idea I Was Hacking"
But the day that Rose connected her Macintosh, she was whisked into a whole new universe of curiosities. "I'd go in and delete a critical file to see what would happen," she says. "Like, 'Oh, so it does that.' And then I'd fix it." She taught herself binary math, the zeros and ones computers rely upon to function, and eventually found other teens secretly dialing in to chat rooms; they showed her tricks, like how to throw "bombs" to lock people out of certain online areas. "I had no idea I was actually hacking," she says.

On the Internet, Rose felt safe, even empowered. "I realized there was opportunity outside my shitty environment," she says, "and that the whole world wasn't a pile of pain." One online friend told her about a computer science program at Sul Ross State University in Alpine, Texas. "That's when the idea of college popped into my head," she says. She applied, got accepted, and took out student loans to pay tuition. "The guru yelled and berated me about letting her go," Rose's mother remembers—but ultimately she supported her daughter's decision.

Rose was free, finally, from Saraswati. But trying to cope with the outside world, she soon began having panic attacks. "I knew tech was my out," she says, "the one thing that was going to save my life." She helped organize game nights, charging $3 per person to play Counter-Strike and Warcraft, raising enough money to take her computer science club to a hacking conference in Las Vegas. The whizzes she met there blew her mind. She learned about "black-hat hackers," who commit crimes, steal identities, and wreak havoc, but also about "white-hat hackers," who try to thwart them. And when she heard that Seattle was fast becoming the center of emerging tech companies like Microsoft, Amazon, and eBay, "I stuffed everything I owned in my car," she says, "and moved there a week after I graduated from college. ASAP."

In Seattle she joined an underground society of self-described ethical hackers called Uninformed, who communicated through a highly encrypted forum. With the group she started finding the security flaws in systems from Microsoft, IBM, and others, sleuthing out worms and malware and then alerting the companies to their own vulnerabilities. For years she used the neutral handle vf (chosen at random), "because they would take a woman less seriously," she says. "A lot of people thought I was a man."

After a while, companies started hiring her. While consulting for Microsoft, Rose says, she worked on some Windows products as a penetration tester. "I would try to break into a piece of software to find all the possible ways a hacker might try, so I could figure out how to stop him before he gets there," she says. While doing a test for a bank, she found she could essentially trade as much money as she wanted into various bank accounts. "I had a shit-ton of student loans I could've wiped out with just a few clicks," she says. "But of course I had to do the ethical thing and report it. The upside is that you sleep well at night."

Soon she climbed the Internet security ranks, working for Live Nation and NASDAQ; the job at NASDAQ particularly fascinated her, since a hack there could threaten the whole economy: "People could lose their bank accounts, retirement savings—their livelihoods," she says. "I started out thinking, Hacking is cool. But it became really important to me that I was protecting people, that I protect their personal safety." In our newly tech-enabled world, Rose had found her superpower.

"We Have to Do Something"
But as Rose made a name for herself professionally in her late twenties, she continued to struggle emotionally. And then one day Tonnessen, who'd left the ashram, emailed her a link to an article about a spiritual teacher at the compound whom they both knew. He'd been accused of rape, in one case of a 12-year-old, and had been acquitted of the charges. Seeing the word rape brought Rose a sudden clarity. "I'd been deluding myself into thinking what happened was not that bad," she says, "but it was." Rose and Tonnessen started thinking about the other children still at the ashram. "There was one specific girl we were worried about," Rose says. "She was so beautiful, so nice. That was the line in the sand. We were like, This is not about us anymore. We have to do something."

In 2007, Rose, along with Vesla Kazimer, Tonnessen's younger sister, traveled to the Hays County sheriff's office in Texas to report their abuse. (The 10-year statute of limitations had run out for Tonnessen.) Saraswati was arrested on April 25, 2008, and posted a million-dollar bond. It took nearly three years for the trial to be scheduled, but in 2011 Rose faced him in court. After all that time, she says, "I saw him for what he was: a predator."

On a Friday in March 2011, Saraswati was convicted of 20 counts of indecency with a minor and allowed to go home for the weekend on bond. The next Monday, he was sentenced to 280 years in prison, but did not show up in court. To this day he has not been found. "I was devastated and heartbroken," says Rose. "It took away that chance I had to believe in life again." (The compound has since changed its name and renounced connections with Saraswati. Tui Rose, who insists she was totally unaware Shyama was molested by the guru, says she was also a victim of "abusive psychological violence." She left the ashram about the time of the court case.)

With the trial over, Rose felt a huge void. She would sit staring into her bathroom medicine cabinet, thinking, There are pills in there; I want to take them. Talk therapy and medication didn't work. The turning point finally came two years ago, after she'd started base jumping: She'd climbed onto a bridge over a stunning ravine and a river, preparing for a jump, and paused. Several of her friends had recently been killed in the sport. "I looked down, and I started to cry," she says. "I thought, This is really scary. I'm not ready to die." In that moment Rose realized how much she wanted to live—not in the shadows, but full-on.

Today Rose thrives, at the top of her game in an industry that's only 10 percent women. "I love the sexiness and fun that hacking brings me," she says. "But there's nothing that pisses me off more than someone doing something bad to someone who can't protect themselves. That obviously stems from seeing children harmed. From being one of those children. This industry gives me a purpose; it's my reason for carrying on." Head of Internet security at a large financial firm she is careful not to name ("I am constantly targeted by malicious hackers, as is my company," she explains), she now spends weekends surfing and skydiving, often with her boyfriend, with whom she shares a home and two cats, Dee Dee and Nugget. While she and her mother are estranged, she remains close with her brother, who left the ashram in 2007. "He's never once let me down," she says.

Rose has a permanent reminder of her old life. Just after she left the temple, she got a tattoo of a dragon on her lower back. It was seven years before The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo became an international best-seller, but Rose sees the wild similarities between her story and that of the novel's protagonist, Lisbeth. ("I think she's a better hacker than I am," she laughs.) Then there's the tattoo she got a year and a half ago on her left arm that sums up her new life, finally free from everything that once trapped her. It reads: "Unfold Your Wings."

Erika Hayasaki is an associate professor of literary journalism at the University of California, Irvine.

http://www.glamour.com/story/how-a-self-taught-hacker-escaped-a-cult

 

Mar 5, 2016

This if "pasao" invented a religion to practice pedophilia

March 4, 2016

(Google translation)

On this day in 2011 in Texas (United States) a jury conviction krisnaísta guru Prakashanand Saraswati (n. 1929) for abusing minors in the eighties and nineties.

Two days later his disciples took him out of the country (until today is a fugitive).

Prakasananda Swami Saraswati (Aiodhia, 1929) is an Indian spiritual leader and pedophile who founded the Radha Madhav Dham religious institution in the United States.

Prakasananda Saraswati was born in 1929 into a family of the Brahmin caste, in the holy city of Aiodhiá (India).

http://noticiaaldia.com/2016/03/este-si-es-pasao-invento-una-religion-para-ejercer-la-pedofilia/

Feb 10, 2016

Swami Dearest

Jeannie Ralston
Texas Monthly
October 1995

In the Hill Country, what was once the hallowed ranch of Walter Prescott Webb is now the sacred site of a mammoth new Hindu temple—and the home of a controversial ashram called Barsana Dham.
   

HE WAS AGITATED. His fingers twitched. His deep brown eyes seemed to grow even more impenetrable. Fifteen minutes into our interview on a bright morning last November. Swami Prakashanand Saraswati made it clear he did not like the questions I was asking about his writings and the spiritual philosophy that governs Barsana Dham, his ashram west of Austin. The 66-year-old leader of the International Society of Divine Love (ISDL) reached toward my tape recorder to turn it off. “These questions are useless. I cannot explain. These are intellectual questions,” he said, shaking his head. His words came out in a breathy mumble, accented by the lilting accent of his native India. “It takes years and years of study to understand these things.”

Signaling an abrupt end to our interview, Swami Prakashanand, called Swamiji by his two thousand or more followers worldwide, slowly lifted his body—clothed in saffron robes, a saffron sweater, and saffron tube socks—from a chair shaped like a satellite dish. Then he walked toward the door of the room, past beatific photos of himself and paintings of the Hindu god Krishna. After telling me he did not want an article written about him, the small man with a hump of a stomach, flowing white hair, and a full beard paused and suddenly smacked the palm of his hand to his forehead, as if he had forgotten something important. He swooned slightly and collapsed in a controlled fall to the carpet, landing with his head near my feet. “Krishn, Krishn,” he called out as he lay on the floor. Two female “preachers,” Western devotees, who also wore saffron robes, rushed to his side. As they frantically administered to him, I was asked to wait downstairs.

When I was called back upstairs a few minutes later, I found a groggy Prakashanand sitting in a rocking chair and was directed to join the two preachers kneeling at his feet. He told me with a sight that his “divine mood” had been “upset unnecessarily.” Later, he explained what had happened in a written statement: “I felt the situation was very negative so I turned my mind away from that side, and it, thus, went into total ecstasy. Because I was standing at that time, so, I think, my body fell on the ground.”



Even before this short, bizarre talk with Prakashanand, officials of Barsana Dham had been reluctant to cooperate with a story about the ashram and its leader. And, clearly, even after Prakashanand had seen me, more questions were raised than answered. Of course, for the ISDL this is nothing new. The organization has been a subject of curiosity ever since 1990, when it put down roots on 210 acres of prime Hill Country land. That curiosity heightened during the past three years, when the ISDL began building one of the largest Hindu temples in the United States; after a well-orchestrated public relations campaign, the ornate temple will be dedicated early this month, in a weekend-long ceremony that will attract holy dignitaries and more than a thousand Hindus from around the world.

Officials of the ISDL describe their organization as “non-profit, religious, educational, and charitable.” They insist that any speculation about its mission is of a different-equals-dangerous variety, that it demonstrates the kind of prejudice that plagues any religion whose precepts depart from the norm—particularly non-Western religions, which are easily misunderstood and therefore easily suspect. But the questions about the ISDL seem to be rooted in more than bigotry or ignorance. In interviews over the past year, some ex-members told me they felt pressured into giving money to the group and that the group is overly controlling; ISDL officials vigorously deny these charges. There are also the longtime Hill Country residents who are disturbed by what they see as ISDL’s lack of respect for the historical significance of its property, which was originally the site of one of Central Texas first secondary schools, then a retreat for three of Texas most famous writers, then a beloved boys camp. Last year an Austin developer sued the ISDL over modifications it had made to the graves of his ancestors, who were the land’s original settlers.

No one challenges the scholars and experts who say that the ISDL is legitimate and well-respected and that it is guided by basic Hindu teachings. No one faults Austin’s Indian community for embracing it. But for followers of a religion devoted to inner contentment and serenity, the ISDL has left some people feeling plenty of neither.

FROM THE TOP of what’s known as Friday Mountain, I could see most of Barsana Dham. Like some other first-time visitors, I had been given a tour of the ashram in an electric golf cart driven by Meera Devi, a preacher with tinsel-straight brown hair who travels the world as one of five robed women who spread the ISDL’s doctrine. Across an expanse of lush fields full of wildflowers and live oak groves, I saw the cluster of small wood homes that are occupied by the ashram’s resident families; seventy devotees, including eleven children, live on the grounds rent-free. A little farther out is a warehouse that operates as a mail-order fulfillment center, one of several businesses run by members but independent of the ashram. Just beyond that is a tall game fence that encircles the property to keep deer out of the gardens and the peach and persimmon orchards, where the devotees—who are all vegetarians—grow most of their own food.

Barsana Dham sits on Camp Ben McCulloch Road three miles east of the area’s famed barbecue pit, the Salt Lick. Its granite roadside entryway opens up to a majestic paved drive that is lined on both sides with Victorian-style street lamps and well-tended crape myrtles. The drive, in turn, leads to the ashram’s centerpiece: the $ 2.5 million, 35,000-square-foot temple that faces Friday Mountain and has a dome topped with a spire that rises ninety feet and will eventually be painted bronze and leafed in gold. The impressively detailed temple was constructed according to descriptions in ancient Hindu scripture. Since last summer, nine Indian artisans have been carving intricate patterns for the temple’s doorways and columns, with some of the designs inspired by Hill Country wildflowers. The Shree Raseshwari Radha Rani Temple will feature a lobby made of pink Chinese marble, a vast prayer hall that can seat 1,500 people under a ceiling painted to look like the open sky, reflecting pools made of Japanese tile, office space, and a religious book store.

Many of the area’s Indian residents donated generously to help pay for the construction of the complex, which was inaugurated in October 1994. Until Barsana Dham was established, Indians in Austin had to travel to another major city to practice their native religion. “When there was a festival, we’d go to the Hare Krishnas in Houston, or we’d drive to San Antonio when there was a temple there,” says Chandrika Amin, a hotelier from San Marcos. “Then we found out that Barsana Dham is right here in our back yard.”

Until the temple is complete, the ISDL has been running most of its activities out of a remodeled two-story limestone house built beginning in the mid-1850’s. Just inside the front door are shelves for depositing shoes; indoors, everyone must go shoeless—even office workers at computers, even cooks in the large stainless-steel and wood kitchen. The house is filled with surreal paintings of the divine couple, Radha and Krishna, and with photos of Prakashanand: a young, dark-haired Prakashanand meditating before a painting of a forest, an older Prakashanand with his face turned toward the heavens, a small likeness of him on cards that read “Silent Dining” and sit on the dining hall’s tables.

Some of the single devotees live in the stone house. Before he moved into an apartment inside the temple, Prakashanand lived there too, except for the time when he was lecturing at one of his ashrams in Vrindaban and Barsana, India; in New Zealand; and in Philadelphia and Austin. Since the ISDL bought the property, the house has been adapted for more of a residential use. In addition to administrative offices, there is a dining area and a room filled with washers and dryers. The upstairs women’s restroom has toilet stalls, showers, and plenty of sinks and mirrors, which are the center of activity when guests are preparing for a prayer meeting.

The first time I attended a prayer meeting, also known as a satsang service, I was invited to dinner beforehand. I arrived at the appointed hour with a friend only to find that the devotees had already eaten, but the food—pinto bean soup, salad, vegetables, and rice—was still in large bowls on a bar to one side of the dining hall. After we ate, Meera Devi and, later, Prakashanand joined us, and before long many devotees had gathered to hear Prakashanand hold forth on his past troubles with reporters. They listened raptly, patiently waiting during his many pauses and laughing loudly when he giggled at his own jokes, though at times I found his English so hard to understand that Meera Devi had to interpret for me.

Each of the prayer meetings I attended took place in an upstairs room of the main stone house. They began with melodic chanting led by one of the preachers, who sang into a microphone while she played a small Indian harmonium and another preacher kept time on a small drum. The call-and-response chants led to faster, more emotional singing, and several devotees played small cymbals and bells. Most of the fifty to sixty devotees who chanted along as they sat on the floor were Westerners, and most were women; many seemed to be in their mid-thirties and forties and wore brightly colored saris.



After a few prayers, the group would turn to a large monitor set to watch one in a series of taped lectures by Prakashanand (the same ones that air on Austin’s public-access channel). It appeared that many of the lectures had been taped in this room, which contained sophisticated video equipment and studio lights. His theme—at least in the lectures I heard—was that our souls are constantly searching for satisfaction, but that the only way to find it is through devotion to God and not in worldly concerns. “People think they’re happy, but they’re not really content,” he said on one tape, his speech clearer than it was at any time that I spoke to him. “Contentment is beyond material ambitions, material needs.”

When the tape would end, and after another chant, moments of quiet expectation would follow. Then the door would swing open and Prakashanand would step in. The devotees would immediately bow at the waist, some nearly touching their faces to the blue carpet, staying that way until he climbed upon a maroon cushioned platform at the front of the room, across from a flower-filled altar bearing the likenesses of Radha and Krishna. A preacher who had entered with him would place a garland around his neck. Speaking into a microphone that was partially hidden by a bouquet of flowers, he would then elaborate on his taped lecture.

Prakashanand’s teachings follow traditional Hindu scriptures and philosophy, which center on the idea that true seekers learn in stages that pleasure and success do not fully satisfy, that what they most long for—the experience of God in their lives—resides inside if they know how to find it. Hinduism is complex, but one of its few clear convictions, other than a belief in reincarnation and karma and in many different personifications of God, is the idea that believers need a guru to show them how to find oneness with God.

In India thousands of people call themselves gurus, most of them teaching their own twists on fundamental Hindu beliefs. “Each guru has his own following and can teach almost anything he wants,” says Robert King, a former dean of liberal arts at the University of Texas at Austin who is now a professor of linguistics and Asian studies there. “Hinduism is very elastic, so these guys can damn near do anything they want and no one’s going to say he’s a bad Hindu. There’s no pope of Hinduism, so there’s a vacuum. Anyone can stand up and say, ‘I’m the true prophet of Hinduism.’“ Most Indians, however, are cautious about selecting a guru. “Hindus [realize] that many gurus are not real gurus at all,” says Acharya Palaniswami, the editor of Hinduism Today, who notes that a Hindu can usually tell a real guru from a fake one by instinct.

There is no doubt that ISDL devotees believe Prakashanand is a real guru. However, while several Indians I spoke to expressed admiration for him, not all gushed over him the way some Western followers did. “When we go [to Barsana Dham] we don’t look for authority. We go there for spirituality,” reports Chandrika Amin, who recently became a life member of the ISDL. “If Swami Prakashanand asks anything logically, all right,” says Ashok Bhandari, who is secretary of Austin’s Indian Community Center. “If he said something and my heart said, No, don’t do it, I would never do it.”

SWAMI PRAKASHANAND SARASWATI began his guru days at mid-life. His official biography states that he was born in 1929 into a Brahman family in Ayodhya, India. At age twenty he renounced conventional life and went into isolation, traveling to the Himalayas, to the forests of India, and to Vrindaban and Barsana, which are considered holy places. For many years he lived in deserted temples and small caves. After taking his religious orders, he studied with his own guru, who taught him the philosophy he preaches today. In 1972 he began lecturing around the world, and nine years later he established the ISDL in the U.S. Soon after, he started his first American ashram in Philadelphia.

Prakashanand is one is a long line of Indian mystics who have come to the U.S. and found devotees with spiritual hungers that could not be satiated in an age of materialism. J. Cordon Melton, the author of The Encyclopedia of American Religions, says the ISDL is a mainstream Hindu group that fits into one of the main denominational categories of Hinduism: those who worship Krishna. In strictly devotional terms, Melton says, “the difference between [the ISDL] and the Hare Krishnas is like the difference between Southern Baptists and Bible Baptists.” According to Hinduism Today editor Palaniswami, the fact that Meera Devi was one of fourteen Hindus chosen by the council of the World Parliament of Religions to attend its centennial celebration in 1993 is a sign of how highly the ISDL is regarded.

Prakashanand instructs ISDL devotees to follow a path to Krishna called bhakti, which requires meditating on Krishna, usually for two thirty-minute sessions per day. A feeling of peace and contentment is what most devotees say they find through Prakashanand’s teachings. “I feel fullness of love in my heart,” says Marsha Kent, the co-president of an infomercial production company in Los Angeles and a devotee of Prakashanand’s for twelve years. “I feel protected by Krishna in my life.”

Just as vital as daily homage to Krishna, however, is service to the spiritual master and his mission. “If a devotee begins to think that devotion is more important than service, he is mistaken,” Prakashanand writes in his book, The Philosophy of Divine Love, adding that the spiritual master is “the personified form of God’s Grace.”

Ashram officials compare service to a master to the service a son might perform for his father. Usually, that means helping the ashram any way possible. “[Devoting your life to God-realization] becomes easier when you understand that God-realization is the prime aim in your life and you believe that your Master is caring for your Spiritual needs,” Prakashanand writes. “Now you have to do your Master’s bidding. You need not analyze his advice because it involves hundreds of sanskar situations [consequences of past lives] that directly or indirectly affect your Spiritual progress.”

The book also encourages devotees to be ready to give to their master. “The love and care which a Master gives to his disciple is invaluable,” Prakashanand writes. “Take an example. Suppose a king grants an opportunity to a beggar saying, ‘If you offer me a part or whole of your income, I will, accordingly, give you a part or whole of my income’ … If the beggar is foolish he will lose the opportunity and if he is wise he will make use of such a rare opportunity. Something like this happens between a Divine Personality and a soul.” Later, Prakashanand adds, “Imagine, in return for the material things used in service to his Master, a devotee receives Divine-love feelings which are invaluable …”

Asked about these passages, officials of the ISDL told me that Prakashanand’s book isn’t for critics—even though it is the basic book recommended for anyone interested in the society. “You cannot pick one sentence from here and there according to your choice and ask why it is so,” I was told, “because they are all interrelated with previous and forthcoming chapters.” Devotee Marsha Kent explained that only a believer can read such a book in the right spirit. “If you already have the feeling, then you can hear it correctly,” she said. “We don’t have critical minds. We’re not judging and evaluating.”

In fact, scholars generally agree that Prakashanand’s writings are not out of line with traditional Hindu philosophy. “It would be very easy to draw the conclusion that this is nothing but a con game,” says Robert King. “That would probably be the way most people unfamiliar with Hindu traditions would see it. But there is also an interpretation based on the Bhagavad Gita, which says you have no right to question your duty. What it teaches is submission to fate and to your master.”

DESPITE THE TONE OF AUTHORITARIAN-ism in Prakashanand’s book, ISDL officials say that Barsana Dham is a place where followers can live as they wish while they pursue their spiritual path. They state that Prakashanand gives advice only on spiritual issues, never on personal affairs, though the ashram does have a few specific rules, such as no alcohol or drugs and no smoking, “illicit lust,” or gambling. “One simple fact: A devotee always has free will to choose whatever lifestyle he wants or wherever he wants to follow,” Meera Devi told me.

This freedom extends to the donations made by members, ashram officials say, and J. Gordon Melton agrees; there is no more pressure to give, he says, than at a neighborhood church. The only funding the ISDL says it can count on is a one-time fee of $ 1,000 that devotees pay when they become lifetime members. There is also a smaller fee paid by lifetime members who attend intensives—extended sessions of mediation and devotion—and some income from the sale of the ISDL’s books and tapes.

Still, considering that the ISDL claims to have only a few thousand followers worldwide, that doesn’t add up to very much—so how can the organization afford its prime piece of real estate in the Hill Country, its ashrams around the world, and its multimillion-dollar temple? One possible explanation is that some of Prakashanand’s most devoted devotees run extremely successful businesses. Ron Jaggie, the president of Northstar Equipment Corporation in New York, admits that he freely gives to the ISDL. One way, he says, is to allow one of the preachers to use one of his corporate American Express cards. He gave it to her “in case she needed money while she was traveling, if she’s alone and she doesn’t have enough money to buy tickets or anything,” he notes. “I don’t see anything wrong with that, I pay for it personally.”

Two other wealthy devotees are Marsha Kent, whose company, Kent and Spiegel Direct, had sales of $ 39 million in 1994, making it the seventh-largest woman-owned business in Los Angeles County; and Katy Williams, whose Williams Television Time—a direct-response advertising agency—logged $ 64 million in sales, making it the fifth-largest woman-owned business in L.A. County. “I look upon it as a privilege that I can donate,” says Williams. “It’s so wonderful what he’s given me. He’s a saint. He’s given up everything and given us love. Anything I can give in return is inconsequential.”

Some ex-members, however, contend that there is great pressure to donate money and that lives are tightly controlled by Prakashanand and ashram leaders. Joe Kelly, who belonged to the ISDL in Philadelphia from 1983 until 1988, believes Prakashanand created an atmosphere there in which “giving without really thinking was encouraged.” One devotee in Philadelphia gave the ISDL an eleven-room house to serve as an ashram, Kelly reports. Kelly, who like many ISDL members had previously practiced another Eastern philosophy, Transcendental Meditation, estimates that he gave the society some $ 25,000 worth of goods, mostly charged on his credit cards. He paid for auto insurance and made partial payments on autos, rugs, and paint for the ashram.

“You got this feeling of expectation. You’d hear whispers about people who were stingy: ‘They’re not truly devoted,’“ says Kelly, who now makes his living counseling ex-cult members. “It was always very subtle, except for one time where [Prakashanand] blatantly called me into his room and said he needed two thousand dollars.” That request was particularly disturbing, Kelly says, because a few days earlier he had confided in Prakashanand that his import business was on the verge of bankruptcy. “It made me think, ‘Has he heard me?’ It led me to be extremely confused about who he was and what he really was. The swami represents himself as this benign yet strict authoritarian holy man, but in reality he is a schemer.”

Diane Hendel, also a former TM practitioner who joined the ISDL in L.A. in the late eighties, says she thinks she was courted by Prakashanand because he thought she was wealthy. At the time, Hendel was part owner of a commodity brokerage firm with a New Age client base. “We raised several million dollars very quickly and did real well until the stock market crash,” says Hendel, who followed Prakashanand from lecture to lecture “like a Deadhead” for two and a half months. “So Prakashanand started talking to me about money real soon—about what kinds of things I could do for the movement, about what kind of businesses I could set up, asking me all kinds of questions about taxes and investments.” Hendel, who is now a volunteer counselor for former TM practioners, believes Prakashanand recruits TM followers because they’re already suggestible.

ISDL officials deny these accusations. In a written statement they alleged that Kelly and Hendel were under the influence of Kelly’s roommate, Pat Ryan, who is also an exit counselor for people leaving cults, and that all three are anti-Hindu. The officials also implied that Kelly’s involvement with a group called the Cult Awareness Network is evidence of his prejudice.

“I am not anti-Hindu,” Kelly counters. “I would never detract from a religion that has helped so many people around the world.” Kelly says he regrets that his allegation may hurt his friends in the ISDL. “There are some very fine people at the ashram. It was fun at times. I don’t want to say it was all hell; that would be inaccurate. There was always a lot of excitement when [Prakashanand] was there.”

Another ex-member finds it easier to look back on the positive aspects of the ISDL. Julian Watson was on a trip to Ireland in 1985 when he met Prakashanand; he was living in his native England at the time following an eleven-year stint with TM. Though he says being based in England isolated him from other devotees, he saw enough to conclude the group was above board. “That situation, having a figurehead at the top, if that figurehead is not responsible—all manner of psychological abuse is possible, but at no point did anyone anywhere near step over the line,” says Watson, who is 42 and lives in Belfast. “Maybe some who had psychological problems felt they were abused. Anyone who’s been in a group and has found that it’s not for them is illogically angry, as if they’ve been caught with their trousers down. They’re angry that the dream has disappeared.”

Still, Watson ended up leaving the ISDL after two and a half years—not because he had problems with Prakashanand personally, but because he couldn’t abide an Eastern religion that demands deference to an authoritarian figure. He cited in particular the directive that a devotee must do as his guru asks. “It made me very uneasy. Like bowing to the floor—I don’t really know why they insisted on that,” Watson says. “That’s where all sorts of things get confused.”

NEARLY EVERY RELIGION—NEARLY every organization, for that matter, from the Elks to the Junior League—has ex-members who are more than happy to recite a litany of disgruntlements. And if greed and authoritarianism were the only accusations leveled at the ISDL they might be explained away as so much griping. But there is another complaint that can’t be dismissed as quickly—namely, that the ashram messed with Texas history.

Soon after moving to the outskirts of Austin—which, as the choose-your-enlightenment capital of the state, is known to be tolerant of most religions—the ISDL remodeled the main stone building on its property. Though the exterior is now covered mostly in wood siding and the inside is filled with plasterboard, vinyl-tiled floors, and commercial carpeting, there is still evidence—a wall here, a window there—of what the house used to be: the original Johnson Institute, which was founded by educator Thomas Jefferson Johnson and operated from 1852 until 1872.

Seventy years later, after changing hands several times, the property began another, equally illustrious life as the retreat of UT historian Walter Prescott Webb, whose stated goal was “to preserve the building and restore it as nearly as possible to its original state.” Friday Mountain Ranch, as Webb called it, was a haven for him and his two celebrated cronies, writer J. Frank Dobie and naturalist Roy Bedichek. Together, the three men are considered the last of Texas’ frontier intellectuals.

Webb, Dobie, and Bedichek spent many days on this land, their preferred hour being “after the heat of the day but in time for the clear blue of the sky to redden with sunset,” writes William A. Owens in his book about the men called Three Friends. Bedicheck lived a year at the ranch, writing his classic Adventures of a Texas Naturalist, in which he says that “the sights, sounds, odors and, especially, the feel of the place stimulate in me memories so warm and intimate that taking up residence here seems more like a homecoming than an escape.”

Starting in 1947, Webb allowed a friend, educator Rodney Kidd, to operate a summer boys camp on his ranch. Thousands of Texas boys filled their summer days riding horses, diving from limestone cliffs into a swimming hole, and searching for Indian artifacts. “This place to me was heaven on earth, a place of sanctuary,” says William Osborn, an Austin attorney who is writing a book about Friday Mountain Ranch. When Webb died in 1963, Kidd bought the land, and he kept the camp going until 1984. By the time the real estate crash of the next few years had come and gone, Kidd too had died, and his sons put the property up for sale.

Initially, developer Walter Reifslager III hatched plans to turn it into a retirement community. In the early eighties, Reifslager had been instrumental in bringing followers of TM to the same area as a developer of two subdivisions. But Reifslager had not secured the funding for construction of his retirement community and finally pulled out of the deal. “It would seem there’s some spiritual significance to the land,” he says, referring to the proximity of the TM developments and Barsana Dham. “But there’s not a connection [between the groups].”

Or is there? In early 1990, soon after the Reifslager talks broke off, the Kidd sons got a call from Dennis Wagner, a former TM follower who had lived in one of the TM subdivisions—and was now a member of the ISDL. After a period of negotiation, Wagner and the Kidds struck a deal. Deed records show that the purchase was made on May 25; according to the Austin American-Statesman, the price was $ 800,000 (ISDL officials won’t comment on this figure). Records also show that on the same day, in a separate transaction, Wagner optioned the land to the ISDL.

Asked why he flipped the land so quickly, Wagner responds, “I really can’t remember that far back how the transaction all happened,” but he maintains that the ISDL’s involvement was never covered up. Opinion within the Kidd family is split, however, on whether the ISDL’s status as the ultimate buyer was concealed. “With a name like the International Society of Divine Love,” insists Deborah Bynum, the family’s attorney in the deal, “that’s something people would have commented on.” Says Clay Kidd, Rodney Kidd’s grandson: “We thought [Wagner] was buying it as a ranch for his family.” But at least one Kidd brother, Desmond, says the family would have sold to the ISDL even if it had known. “It was nothing more than a flip deal. [Wagner] was the front man,” says Desmond. After the ISDL’s involvement was made public—another Kidd brother, Walter, sold 27 more acres directly to the group.

For his part, Prakashanand says he did not know about the property’s historic significance when he purchased it. The land simply reminded him of a holy region in India called Braj, and while preservationists saw in the main stone house a stunning example of early Texas architecture, he saw a building unfit for living. “When it rained we had to have buckets in our rooms to catch the rain,” Meera Devi recalls. “We had to enclose the veranda.” But there were other wholesale changes to the exterior of the building, which was designated a historic landmark in 1964; for instance, all of the chimneys were removed. “There was no condition that the face of the old building could not be changed,” officials of the ashram told me. “After renovation the historical society people happily took the [historic] marker away with our permission.”

Well, not so happily. “They knew that it was a registered historic landmark and they knew what their obligations were, but they purposefully ignored them,” says Lila Knight of the Hays County Historical Commission. Under state law, Knight points out, a person may not damage the historical or architectural integrity of a designated historical structure without notifying the Texas Historical Commission (THC) at least sixty days in advance. The ISDL did not notify the commission, but civil penalties of up to $ 1,000 a day were not applied because the building was beyond restoration when the changes were discovered, says Cynthia Beeman of the THC. Instead, the market was simply removed in 1992. “It was obvious that they had dramatically altered the structure,” says William Osborn, who visited Barsana Dham during the renovation. “It was very traumatic. I decided never to go out there again.”

This past year, alterations to another relic of the Johnson days have prompted more exasperation—as well as a lawsuit filed by 90-year-old Emmett Shelton, the founder of the Austin suburb West Lake Hills and a great-grandson of Thomas Johnson. Johnson, his wife, and a few relatives and slaves are buried on the former Friday Mountain Ranch close to the site of the new temple on a half-acre plot that the deed specifically reserved as a cemetery site in the 1990 sale. Yet the gravestones belonging to Johnson and his wife have been taken out of the ground, and the tops and bottoms, where the Christian mottoes were located, have been cut off. “We have found that they moved the stones and took them somewhere to be cut,” says Shelton’s attorney, Louis Bratton. “This was not just something done on a Saturday afternoon.” The truncated stones, it turns out, were embedded in a slab of concrete that was poured over the two graves.

In the suit, Shelton is asking for the graveyard to be restored to its original condition. “That’s the minimum they get to do, if this was an innocent, non-malicious act,” says Bratton. “But if we find it was malicious, [Shelton] may want to pursue punitive damages. He would be very upset.” Because both the mottoes were clearly Christian, Bratton is trying to find out if there were religious motives for removing them.

In response to questions about the lawsuit, the ISDL issued this written statement: “It was a totally neglected and scary looking grave in the middle of our family residential area. To our knowledge no one ever cared for the graves. So the person in charge of maintaining the grounds cleaned it up and made it look neat in good faith and with respect to the graves. The lawsuit appears to be a prejudicial harassment and hindering the God’s work which we are doing to create a spiritual base for endorsing religious harmony and peace in the world.”

Of course what ISDL officials fail to realize is that Texas law prohibits people from tampering with graveyards—even if they own the land. “I think what they have done is terribly insensitive,” says Lila Knight. “It makes me suspect they’re not concerned about what people think. I think it blows their goodwill in the community.”

THE GOODWILL KNIGHT REFERS TO IS important to the members of the ISDL and they hope it, in the end, will win out over any controversy that might be brewing. Already, the image-polishing seems to be working. “They’ve always been friendly and gracious to me,” says Mitchell Brown, who runs a nursery in Driftwood and has done work for Barsana Dham. “I’ve got kids who play baseball with [their] kids,” he adds. “I only have positive things to say about how they’ve interacted with the community.”

Likewise, ashram devotees occasionally attend neighborhood meetings, and they invite locals to their festivals. Soon, the ISDL will offer public classes in Indian language and culture. “They’re good neighbors,” says Joe Thielepape, pastor of Friendship Baptist Church, which is the ISDL’s next-door neighbor. “Swamiji was in my office a couple of years ago. He was very jovial and courteous. I’m glad to be in America because in America they have as much right to exist as we do.”

And exist they will keep on doing—for quite some time, apparently. The new temple is being built to last one thousand years, a devotee told a local paper, and Prakashanand shows no sign of slowing down his guru work. During one of the first ceremonies held on the site of the new temple last year, he sat on a lavender-and-bluesatin-covered platform near the new large altar, watching a skit about Krishna’s boyhood performed by members of the ashram. Bare plasterboard and the steel framing of the temple walls were visible. The windows had not been installed yet, so the cool Hill Country air blew through the cavernous temple. Outside, the light was slipping from the sky. It was the same time of day that Webb, Dobie, and Bedichek had preferred. Of course, Friday Mountain Ranch has a new master now, and as he watched his devotees that night, he leaned back on a bank of pillows and smiled.

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Jan 28, 2016

Podría ser una prostituta... prefiero ser una nerd

Por Laurie Segall
CNN
19 enero, 2016


Shyama Rose
Lo más importante


El hacking ayudó a Shyama Rose a escapar de la opresiva comunidad religiosa donde se crió, dirigida por un pedófilo que abusaba de ellaAhora trabaja para algunas de las mayores compañías del mundo, manteniendo a los hackers hostiles fuera de sus redes

(CNNMoney)– Cuando conoces a Shyama Rose, hay algo familiar en ella. Ella es pequeña, rubia y tiene un aire que te hace sentir que es alguien apropiado para tomarte una cerveza.

En su espalda baja tiene un tatuaje que según dice ella parece un pollo al revés... se lo hizo hace más de una década, es un dragón.

Ella es una hacker. Lo que inició como un pasatiempo cuando era niña, no solo le provee un sustento, sino que le salvó la vida. El hacking la ayudó a escapar de la opresiva comunidad religiosa donde se crió. El ashram, Barsana Dham, era dirigido por un pedófilo que abusaba sexualmente de ella.

Parte de esto podría parecer familiar. Shyama Rose es casi una extraña versión de la vida real de La chica del dragón tatuado.

"Creo que mi historia y la de La chica del dragón tatuado son bastante parecidas", dijo Rose. "Sin duda ella hackea a las personas... y su pasado fue todo un infierno".

Al igual que la chica ficticia con el dragón tatuado, Lisbeth Salander, la historia de Rose inicia con momentos oscuros de su infancia.

Ella creció en un complejo religioso en las afueras de Austin, Texas, donde cientos de personas dedicaban sus vidas a un gurú conocido como Swamiji. Todo era una fachada de una horrible perversión: Swamiji fue declarado culpable de abusar sexualmente de dos de las chicas en el complejo.

Rose tenía 11 años cuando ocurrió la primera vez.

"Yo estaba de pie en la cocina... usando este gigantesco sari... y él estaba tratando de ajustarlo a mi alrededor y él solo, ya sabes, comenzó a tocar".

El abuso se prolongó durante siete años. Ella dice que a los seguidores como su madre les lavaban el cerebro y no podían ayudar.

"No solo no lo impedían, lo reconocían y lo fomentaban. Nos solían enviar a las manos de este tipo de forma regular y nos decían que lo disfrutáramos".

Como consuelo, Rose solía recurrir a una Macintosh SE que su mamá le compró.

"Cuando adquirí la computadora fue un alivio para mi vida", dijo. "Fue una total salvación".

En el ashram, aprendió a codificar y luego a hackear. Cuando se graduó de la escuela secundaria, Rose hizo algo que muy pocas personas en su comunidad hacían: fue a la universidad. Ella dejó el complejo y se convirtió en un arma importante en el sector de la seguridad cibernética.

"Siento la necesidad de proteger porque he visto que suceden muchas cosas malas en el mundo", le dijo a CNNMoney.

Para satisfacer esa necesidad, el trabajo actual de Rose es pensar como un tipo malo y hacerlos tropezar antes de que puedan atacar.

Ella es alguien a quien llamarías hacker sombrero blanco y ha trabajado para algunas de las mayores compañías del mundo, manteniendo a los hackers hostiles fuera de sus redes. Ella identifica los lugares donde los intrusos —como gobiernos hostiles, el Ejército Electrónico Sirio o competidores que tratan de robar la propiedad intelectual— podrían entrar y luego descubre cómo prevenirlo.

Por ejemplo, fue contratada por la bolsa de valores Nasdaq para mantener a los hackers alejados de su sistema.

"Si China llegara a atacar a Nasdaq, ¿cómo lo haría?" Ese era el tipo de preguntas para el que contrataron a Rose. Ella analizaría el software de Nasdaq, examinando dónde ingresaban los datos los usuarios y determinando cómo un tipo malo haría que el sistema acepte spyware.

De adulta, Rose pudo enfrentar a su propio atacante. En el 2011, Rose testificó en contra de Swamiji. Él fue declarado culpable de 20 cargos de indecencia con un menor y condenado a 280 años de prisión. Él pagó la fianza —11 millones de dólares— y huyó antes de ser encerrado. Swamiji aún sigue fugitivo.

Rose también se encuentra liberada de otras maneras. La Salander ficticia monta una motocicleta alrededor de Suecia; Rose usa un casco similar mientras cae del cielo sobre el sur de California. Ella pasa casi 20 horas a la semana en una pista de aterrizaje en medio de las montañas... el paracaidismo es donde encuentra la paz y el control.

"Mucha gente podría pensar que son cosas completamente diferentes... es decir, el hackeo es algo que se hace con la mente y el paracaidismo es algo en el que te lanzas cuello abajo", dijo. "Para mí, son cosas complementarias, ya que logro controlar tanto mi cuerpo como mi mente al mismo tiempo".

Ella describe el paracaidismo como una experiencia que la lleva a través de la montaña rusa de la vida. A la edad de 35 años, su vida ha tenido algunos cambios dramáticos.

"Tengo todo el derecho a ser una prostituta drogada... pero prefiero ser una nerd".

Dec 10, 2015

I could be a prostitute. I'd rather be a nerd.

CNN
December 07, 2015

NEW YORK

When you meet Shyama Rose, there's something familiar about her. She's petite, blonde, has an air that makes you feel like she'd be good to grab a beer with.

On her lower back, there's a tattoo she says looks like an upside-down chicken -- she got it over a decade ago, it's a dragon.

She's a hacker. What started as a childhood hobby not only provides her with a living, it saved her life. Hacking helped her escape from the oppressive religious community where she was raised. The ashram, Barsana Dham, was led by a pedophile who sexually abused her.

Some of this may sound familiar. Shyama Rose is an almost uncanny real-life version of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.

"I think the story of me and The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo are fairly similar," Rose said. "She certainly hacks people ... and she has a hell of a past."

Like the fictional girl with the dragon tattoo, Lisbeth Salander, Rose's story begins with dark moments from her childhood.

She grew up on a religious compound outside of Austin, Texas, where hundreds devoted their lives to a guru known as Swamiji. It was all a cover for a horrifying perversion: Swamiji was convicted of molesting two of the girls on the compound.

Rose was 11 when it happened the first time.

"I was standing in the kitchen ... wearing this gigantic sari... and he was trying to adjust it around me and he just, you know, started touching."

The abuse went on for seven years. She says followers like her mother were brainwashed and unable to help.

"Not only did they not stop it, they acknowledged it and promoted it. They would send us into this guy's hands on a regular basis and told us to enjoy it."

For solace, Rose escaped into a Macintosh SE that her mother bought for her.

"When I got the computer it was the lightening in my life," she said. "It was a total savior."

At the ashram, she learned to code, and then to hack. When she graduated high school, Rose did something that very few people in her community did: she went to college. She left the compound, and became a top gun in the cybersecurity sector.

"I feel the need to protect because I've seen a lot of bad things happen in the world," she told CNNMoney.

To satisfy that need, Rose's job today is to think like a bad guy and trip them up before they can attack.

She's what you'd call a White Hat hacker, and she has worked for some of the biggest companies in the world, keeping hostile hackers out of their networks. She identifies places where outsiders -- like unfriendly governments, the Syrian Electronic Army or competitors trying to steal intellectual property -- might get in, and then figures out how to prevent it.

For example, she was hired by the Nasdaq stock exchange to keep hackers out of its system.

"If China would attack Nasdaq, how would they do it?" Those were the kinds of questions Rose was hired to answer. She would analyze Nasdaq software, looking at where users entered data and figuring out how a bad guy would make the system accept spyware.

As an adult, Rose was able to take on her own attacker. In 2011, Rose testified against Swamiji. He was convicted on 20 counts of indecency with a child and sentenced to 280 years in prison. He posted bail -- $11 million -- and fled before he could be locked away. Swamiji is still on the run.

Rose finds release in other ways, too. The fictional Salander rides a motorcycle around Sweden; Rose wears a similar helmet as she falls out of the sky over Southern California. She spends nearly twenty hours a week on a landing strip in the middle of the mountains -- skydiving is where she finds peace and control.

"A lot of people would think they're completely different -- like, hacking is completely neck up [and] skydiving is neck down," she said. "To me, they're complementary, so I get to control both my body and my mind at the same time."

She describes skydiving as an experience that takes her through the roller coaster of life. At 35, hers has had some wild swings.

"I have every right to be a coked-up prostitute ... but I would rather be a nerd."

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